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Friday, January 14, 2011
"Got to be strong!!!" I never know I have became such a fragile person... Spend the afternoon in camp doing nothing but polishing my Gotex Boots. As I polished, many thoughts came into my mind. Why? How much has National Service change me? Shouldn't it be in a better way? But...why? I have become someone whose self confidence level not high, a very low esteem fellow... Sigh...is good, now I see couples around me. Definitely, the feeling of being envious came to me. One more month! Exactly one more month!!! Is Valentine's Day already in one month time!!! Freak!!! I guess I'm going to add another year to my lonely celebration this year. I hate it. And it happened quite frequently. Sometimes when I know this person better, trying to get to know more about her and enter her life, I hate it, when this sentence came out of her mouth, "I'm attached already." Man!!! The high hopes...have become high disappointment. And once again, I will be walking down the streets alone. Why am I stress about this? What am I vex about? Every day staring at my handphone, looking at the contacts, I don't know who to talk to, who can I sms. Coming back home from book out should be a joy. But, these months of book out, all I did is just face the computer and play basketball. Seriously no life, looking at my Facebook contacts, trying to ask any of them out, but feel very awkward, somehow like too random. What will they think if I randomly ask them out? Will they avoid me? Am I asking too much? Am I demanding too much? All I want is just to be someone's good boyfriend, someone's guy who loves her, care for her. Someone she can lean on, someone who can hug her, hold her. Someone I can call "Dear, Honey, Baby..." Probably I'm thinking too much, but if one day, just one day, if there's this special one tell me she had a crush on me before, guess I will run to her and give her a nice hug. Sigh...my post, seems like I in depression, but I'm not. I'm just...who will understand what I'm feeling now? Emo at 9:11 PM |
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