Friday's out camp run was really quite torturing. The feeling of not knowing where's your end point and just keep running aimlessly really sucks. But when you able to finish the end point, it feels like you have made a great achievement.

Since is a long distance, I can't help it but to run without my clothes on. The sweat stinks, and its very tight when the PT shirt stick onto your body. After finishing the run with my body full of sweat, this cockster SSG came to ask me how I trained my 6 packs. LOL? Not trying to show off, but...I'm skinny, it's not a surprise to see me having packs. Then I just told him to do Sit Ups or Crunches should be able to build up. PC was beside me when this SSG asked, he said he make a challenge to his girlfriend by November must have body packs like mine.Then my PC asked him when he start training, for just 2 weeks how to see the effect?! LMAO! I trained since Secondary School, of course to have these packs is worth it. Good luck to this SSG man. LOL...

These few days I have been SMS-ing her in camp. Every SMS we sent means a lot to me, feels like each day is bringing me closer to her, I hope. Because of that, bunk mates start to look at me suspiciously. HAHA! But who cares...ya. My life seriously was very boring in the past, like there's only black and white. Now, after knowing her, each time she fills my life with different colours. Okay, guess I'm exaggerating too much. Ya, I think probably watched too much dramas, I told her she's the tenant staying in my heart now. HAHA! Okay...lame...=.='''

From the SMS we had, she had too many things on her mind and can't commit herself to a relationship yet. I have to understand no matter what, and stop adding pressure to her. But, maybe is my selfish being, I'm afraid I will lose her without knowing. Ya, I have many regrets in the past. Like things would have changed if I had made a confession and I wouldn't have these regrets. Don't know what to do now, really. She told me just be normal and myself. But...I jokingly text that if I one day just being myself and randomly hold onto her hands, how will she feel? Her reply really...give me a surprise. She thinks is okay, haha! What the...I was really expecting like some rejections, probably that's one that makes her different from other girls.

I don't know when this going to happen, but for sure, one day I'm gonna hold her hands tight. There's so much I wanna share with her, my happiness, my sorrows, blaa blaa blaa...and of course, if that day comes when I really hold her hands, I wished that whatever problems she's facing, she can share with me, especially those things that were weighing on her mind. Message to her is, "I'm always right here by your side and you are not alone". From what I think, as a guy, every girl in this world deserved to be loved.