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Tuesday, September 22, 2009 Heartbroken Day 29
自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲、自悲 Sigh...getting very very very 自悲 liao...more and more 自悲...went to school to meet Teresa and clique. Wanted to play basketball in school, but the weather's not on our side. So we walked our way to St.Hilda's Secondary School there the shelter basketball court. Saw some Ah Bengs there, they jio us to play match when we reached. Ok, then we played the first game with Brother Tian Zhi Yan in our team. Before we start, I told the rest is ok if we lose, just let them win, don't want to get into any fights. This is their "territory", if lose...really no face. Ok, then we played the first game with them, the score quite close, although they won, I'm just playing 30% of myself. =X Oops! Not trying to show off, ya...then the next game we substitute players to join. This time all guys liao. One of the Ah Bengs keep travelling a lot lor, wanted to say...but...just keep quiet. If not wait they not happy drag me one corner and fight. The second game started, seriously this Ah Beng travelled until too obvious already, no choice I have to say. Don't care already, give in too much. We won the second game ACCIDENTALLY!!! Really didn't expect to win, just smile smile, tyco tyco shoot in. THIS is the only game I won today throughout the whole matches. After that we played among ourselves, all the games I lost. Sigh...not because I'm pek chek with my friends on the way they play. They have their own style, their own ways. I'm not blaming them, each time I defend, the moment they get the ball in, I'd say "asshole", influenced by Teresa. "Asshole" I don't mean them, I'm referring to myself. Why? Why did I let them to get the ball in? Why? Why am I this weak? Why? Is it because of my defence which caused my CSC game to knock out last week? Why? Why? Why? Why whatever things I do now...always failed...why? So many whys...I tried to make myself happy, tried to keep my morale going, tried to do all the best I can, but...in the current state I am in now, whatever I do...naturally will always fail. Is it because I'm getting more and more unlucky? There's no one for me to turn to now. I think next time can wrap a cloth on my forehead with this letter "L". "L" stands for "Loser"... Came to realise, the old Clem has already vanished...the Clem who shoots 3 point very accurate is no longer exist...that Clem who plays in the Director's Cup last year and get his team into 3rd position has also gone...the full of confidence and enthusiasm Clem when comes to basketball had disappeared...had been searching searching and searching...but to no avail. Had dinner with Alexis, Teresa and KY after the game at the food court besides Mc Donald in Tampines Interchange. Really feeling ultra down, just ordered spicy Tom Yam noodles to numb myself again... Last night didn't really sleep, keep staring at the ceiling while lying on my mattress. Thought a lot a lot of things. Questioned myself, now there's no one for me to carry a torch for...now there's no one for me to wait for her...now there's no one for me to do so many foolish things for her...now there's no one for me to know and understand about her...and now what I have is two very good friends by my side, they are Emptiness and Loneliness. Emo at 11:54 PM |
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